Mortality.

I wish you could understand;
How the pain began;
The history I hide;
All the cyanide;
You came into my life;
My covered strife;
You took it all away;
Day by day;
One promise;
It was simply bliss;
I thought you loved me;
Why can’t it be?
I’ve fallen for your trap again;
Left out in the rain;
The water rushing over my sins;
Numb are my limbs;
Screaming to the skies;
Years of lies;
I thought you loved me;
Why can’t it be?
Heartbroken;
Quietly spoken;
Tears thrown down, too shameful to be worn;
You are the rose and I am your thorn;
Mascara pouring down;
My pale white frown;
Hidden all the present fear;
You’re no longer here;
To conquer my disease;
You hold the keys;
I second guess my sanity;
Complaining in profanity;
Another endless, loveless night;
I strike the match, the flame burns bright;
I watch the smoke dance;
Just one more chance?
“Cut me open, drug me!”
Watch me bleed, into this sea;
The hate will not subside;
As I see the waves collide;
I inject the poison once more;
It turns the waves into a war;
Torn flesh and broken bones;
Your heart beat, a warning tone;
The innocence you lack;
Heart attack;
Imperfections leak;
Barely unique;
Red stained eyes;
Hidden in disguise;
Every tear I cried;
You gained more pride;
I dream of you despite;
The blackness of night;
The sound of your voice, the pattern of your breath;
Empowering the meth;
Cries so deafening;
Threatening;
I blame myself;
I place our memories on the shelf;
Your soft kiss;
Your silent hiss;
I wish I wasn’t here tonight;
This pleasurable addiction will make me bite;
The bullet that has struck my soul;
Deep beneath I have lost control;
Cross my heart and hope to die;
This world, your love, it was a lie;
Now im reaching overdose;
One day you will see my ghost;
I will haunt you for eternity;
I will follow you through phantom city;
Heartache;
That was my mistake;
Demons sing of my untimely end;
As I try not to pretend;
Out of this depth;
Disadvantaged youth;
My story will live on;
Expanding upon;
This black and white reality;
Mentality;
Mortality.